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Life on Life's Terms
Well, it seems like the semester is starting to come close to an end. I can't believe in about 5 weeks this semester will be done, for better or worse.
I am studying for an associates degree in Business Programmer Analyst and this semester has been absolutely brutal on me. I have had bad marks in tests, trouble even beginning to understand certain programs, and a huge issue with my mental health issues this term. While I continue to keep showing up and trying to participate in the life that I have both chosen and which has been laid at my feet by my Higher Power, my growth has been somewhat stifled in the program of recovery. I am trying to keep going back to meetings, but I can see and understand now why even with long term sobriety (got sober on Halloween, 1999) I am in danger of slipping back into my old thoughts and behaviors. Thankfully, there are people who are active enough in my life that it helps keep me away from the precipice.
On Tuesday, I went to our (my home groups) Big Book Study. First thing that totally took me by surprise was a newcomer that shared and reminded me that this disease is a killer. Second thing that really helped me focus was (ironically enough) someone that talked to me after the meeting. His name is Marcus and while he was describing the amends that he was making to his family since he was on vacation really brought me to the present. Even better was our shared issues and how he was willing to listen and talk to make me feel not quite so alone in this area. I am still sort of debating about what I should do this summer/ fall because my whole attitude is so lackadaisical. *Shrugs*
Well, I just wanted to try to get started in here because I know that there are a lot of areas that I need to get plugged into if I am going to keep growing. Thanks for finding out what is going on and I hope that you are doing well and enjoying your sobriety.
I am studying for an associates degree in Business Programmer Analyst and this semester has been absolutely brutal on me. I have had bad marks in tests, trouble even beginning to understand certain programs, and a huge issue with my mental health issues this term. While I continue to keep showing up and trying to participate in the life that I have both chosen and which has been laid at my feet by my Higher Power, my growth has been somewhat stifled in the program of recovery. I am trying to keep going back to meetings, but I can see and understand now why even with long term sobriety (got sober on Halloween, 1999) I am in danger of slipping back into my old thoughts and behaviors. Thankfully, there are people who are active enough in my life that it helps keep me away from the precipice.
On Tuesday, I went to our (my home groups) Big Book Study. First thing that totally took me by surprise was a newcomer that shared and reminded me that this disease is a killer. Second thing that really helped me focus was (ironically enough) someone that talked to me after the meeting. His name is Marcus and while he was describing the amends that he was making to his family since he was on vacation really brought me to the present. Even better was our shared issues and how he was willing to listen and talk to make me feel not quite so alone in this area. I am still sort of debating about what I should do this summer/ fall because my whole attitude is so lackadaisical. *Shrugs*
Well, I just wanted to try to get started in here because I know that there are a lot of areas that I need to get plugged into if I am going to keep growing. Thanks for finding out what is going on and I hope that you are doing well and enjoying your sobriety.
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